Sunday, May 15, 2005

We all have roles to play in our lives. We play the role of a son, a spouse, an employee, a friend ,a on and so forth.

I entered into a new role about a year and a half back. It was new, it was exciting and not to mention, very scary. As time went on, I got more and more used to that particular role. It became part of who I was, it helped me define myself. I threw myself into it and enjoyed every bit of it.

Now suddenly, I've been requested not to play that role. Came as a bit of shock to me. Things change apparently and there's no need for it anymore.

Now I'm left asking myself who I really am and what I'm supposed to do with my life. I've spent the last year and a half looking at everything from my role's point of view. It served as a kind of reference. Now that its no longer needed, I find myself panicing at times.

I do know that I'll get my nerves in order soon. I'll start looking at life from a fresh perspective and things will be ok again. I guess I just need some time.


Kroopa Shah (Kr00pz) said...

Oh my God!! I think I am going to email you, you are so crazy!!

Kroopa Shah (Kr00pz) said...

Well I dont think I can email you now since some @$$hole thinks I have a crush on you.

dreamseller said...

Hmmm... I don't know that I can or should be saying anything. But maybe sometime down the line you'll realise that there is a reason behind the "roles" we end up playing and especially behind the ones that don't work out.

Trust me, I know what it is like to be asked not play a role that your really feel is just the right kind of role for you. I know... oh, only about four times over! And hopefully the role I am playing now will stick. And that's why all those other roles didn't work out.

Perhaps next time you could choose not to plan your life around a role. Plan your life around you and the role should follow. If not then you know it was a role which was just not meant to be.

And yes, now I'm done. Promise! take care, ok?

Anonymous said...

Sup DD! Checking in after ages. Entirely agree with you on people trying to read you the rule book after showing up at your place. IMO if people bother coming to my place (esp uninvited) they really ought to brace themselves for the worst. I secretly (ok now that I've mentioned it here it's not a secret anymore) wish i had people like Ms Anonymous visit just so I could ignore them completely or say something very cutting and acidic. Trust all's well - Ravi