A fairly eventful weekend. First about my GD and interview...it was nothing like I expected! I was sure that I was gonna get some really obscure topic for the GD and I was doubly sure that I would be asked questions on engineering in the interview and hence be screwed. Was plesantly suprised when the GD topic announced was " India is shining only for 10% of India ". Considering I'd gone so far as to mug up the budget, I found it fairly easy to come up with points. Compared to the GD's I've had at TIME class, this one was incredibly civilised. If you persisted, everyone else would shut up. TIME GD's were terrible, no one would give a damn about what you said, it was bloody competitive.

The interview was an anti climax too. There were 3 seperate interviews and I was asked the same questions in all 3 of them. They seemed to be more interested in my family than in me. No tough questions ,they were all qute straightforward.

Aparna and I came out of LIBA wondering if the GD and interview was done with serious intent or done just for the sake of doing it. Perhaps the candidates had already been selected and the GD and interview had just been a formality. It was nothing like TIME. Personally, I think I did the GD and PI well but I'm quite sceptical about my chances. Besides, LIBA has 50% reservation for christians! That means only 30 seats for other candidates. So 300 candidates for 30 seats...I have a 1 in 10 chance of making it.

Saturday and Sunday was spent in finishing the project report. Its finally over thank God! Now the only thing left is for our project to actually work :P

Well, the LIBA interview is tommorow and the butterflies in my stomach have officially crossed the 1000 Km/second speed limit. Any second now my tummy is going to launch itself into outerspace. YEAH I'M NERVOUS!!!!!

I was pretty confident till yesterday when I had mock interview which went terribly. The interviewer asked me a dozen question from software engineering, a paper I had in the 4'th semester (which was last century according me). Its ok when you cant answer a couple of questions but after a dozen consecutive
" I dont know sir, I dont know sir, hehe sir ", your feeling of self worth sort of comes down.

Anyway, I realise I'm not going to help myself by being negative. Have to think positive, have to feel positive, gotta be confident, have to believe in myself and lots of other positive stuff. Wish me the best of luck :-)

Sometimes when I look at all thats going on in the world today, I ask myself " Shouldnt I take a keener interest in whats going on around me? Shouldnt I closely monitor politics? Shouldnt I follow the
India-Pakistan peace process? Shouldnt I have opinions on outsourcing? Shouldnt I know what happens in a stock market? Shouldnt I...." and then for some reason I end up watching porn.

I know that it is good to be well informed but personally, I find keeping up with the news incredibly boring. Not something I should be saying when I have an interview for my MBA admission at LIBA on the 26'th....

Ok so I'm a terrible blogger.

its not like I have writers blog ( joke..hyuk hyuk hyuk ). Its just that off late nothing really seems to appeal to me.Everything seems remarkably dull. Nothing different between yesterday and today. Ok, something really different between moday and tuesday, but I cant tell you what. Anyway I'm brain dead, I'm in a coma, I'm listless,I'm bored, Ennui, weary, taedium vitae, dull, apathetic, down in the doldrums blah blah blah.

Somehow I feel OLD. I feel like there's nothing to really look forward to anymore ( No, I'm not suicidal, I havent had sex as yet ). Sometimes I wish I didnt know so much. I wish I could be more emotional. I havent cried in a decade, I havent let go. I'm quiet, in control, reserved all the time. I want to throw a tantrum, I want to hurt someone's feelings and feel GOOD about it. I dont want my concience, it gets me down. I think I need to go to bed. Good night.

p.s:- in other news, I got a call from LIBA, my one and only official call so yay! Lets see how that goes.